WHEN?!!?! WHEN DID THIS BECOME A SHOW I CARE ABOUT SO MUCH THAT THE FINALE LEAVES ME IN FLOODS OF TEARS?!?!?

Just.... TOSH. Oh god, poor poor amazing Tosh. For a horrible time towards the end I thought they were actually going to have her die ALONE, which would just be the worst possible thing - but thank god, they had Jack and the others come along so she died with them there, knowing she'd done amazingly and had helped save the world Cardiff. Dying surrounded by people she loved was the best thing she could really have - while Owen dying knowing he'd just saved millions of people, especially with his whole speech to Jack in 'Fragments' about how you can never save enough, was the best thing for him. So yes, writers, you threw me a tiny bit of comfort there, BUT DAMN YOU YOU BROKE ME.

I just about managed to hold it in when Owen died. I was only just coming round to properly liking his character anyway. But when Tosh died, I lost it. I LOVED Tosh. I always felt so bad for her and wished the writers would cut her a break.

AND THEN! AND THEN THEY HAD THAT VIDEO OF HER THAT SHE'D RECORDED JUST IN CASE SHE DIED. WHERE SHE WAS SO HAPPY AND SMILEY AND NOT IMAGINING WHAT IT WAS REALLY GOING TO BE LIKE. OH TOSH. TOOOOOSH.

Other thoughts, so I can try to stop crying already.

Gwen was pretty bearable this episode. If the rumours that John Barrowman's leaving Torchwood for her to take over are true, if she shows anywhere near the competence she had at the police station then I could stand it. Though I don't need Rhys and Andy to TELL me she's doing good. Writers, I know you think she's the Sparkliest Unique-est Snowflake Evar, but remember SHOW, DON'T TELL. Especially don't lump the Awesomeness that is Rhys and Andy with it.

Ianto wasn't in it nearly enough. Though the bit where he shot the Reapers with Tosh? AWESOME. ON. A. STICK.

I've realised I couldn't actually care less about Jack. Just... John Barrowman's acting annoys me. I would go more into it, but I have to go meet kleenexcow at the station.

And I'm in floods. Oh SHIT.

TOOOOOOOOOOSH.

PS "I forgive you"??? Shut up, Jack. You're not the Doctor. And no amount of Messiah-ness, historical figure name-dropping, FoeYay or having faithful female assistants saying "I wouldn't have missed it for the world" is going to convince me otherwise.